and so i spoke to him. after so long. we've not spoken since the incident. i'm relieved, but at the same time loaded with more information. I've always wanted to talk to him about it. Maybe i was too angry, maybe i thought i shouldn't ask, maybe i knew from the beginning it might not be a good idea. but alas, I asked the Qs, he answered. not the perfect answer. I'm being selfish, cause at least i know it's still like the past. He's still the usual him, not the one that I thought he had changed into.
I'm not as angry, but I'm ....... sad? Mixture.

Choice made can't be taken back. not this time. Make better of the situation.
Love ya.