21:19
16th Oct 08

It's a pretty 'slack' week. Although we had 2 quizzes, but that's the norm every week. Did quite badly for the anatomy quiz on wed, as I was too famished and tired to think. lesson learned, to rest enough and take lunch.
Lecturer said that I should have done better overall. I thought I was good enough. oh well, he expects too much from me. I'm already slightly above the class average. But it's still demoralising, having to hear that. But but but, it also means that I'm capable of doing better isn't it? ROOMS FOR IMPROVEMENT. ALL THE WAY!!!

There's this really huge distraction coming into my life. I'm addicted to it. I don't know why. I hate being addicted, that's why I've always prevent myself from being involved in anything addictive. but this thing just came withouth me knowing that i'll get addicted. It's frustrating, not being able to control myself, I really hate this. My mood just plunge to the lowest, making me angry and upset. Exams are drawing near, I've to do something. What should I do? Speak out? block everything? or find alternatives?
The thing is, I do not know why am I addicted. The conversation just keeps playing in my mind, and non of them make sense to my addiction. I just have to admit, I'm a failure in this.

Thanks to my entertainer for entertaining me when I was super bored or angry.

Love
Jia Pei