sentimental
19.04
15th aug 07

This would be a rather touchy post...
i think
i hope
i guess?

my cousin cum friend would be leaving perth soon. she did one semester of biomed, but would be moving over to sydney to continue her studies as a veterinary student. well, glad for her as she is finally able to study what she want, but am sad because we can't have fun together anymore. she can be considered as my best friend here, we joke around like no tomorrow, we gossip, we don't hide anything from each other and we encourage each other so often. she is a really wonderful person. and now, she is leaving me, to fend for myself (wahahahahaa, she would know what i meant), to continue this great and tedious adventure all by myself. i was reluctant to let her go during the end of last semester where she was told that she might be going over, and when i got to know that she is going over at the airport, i was quite taken aback. but well, after so many big wind and big tide (translation needed), nothing seems impossible. i wasn't really affected, and now i have got myself used to the idea of her going over. anyway we still have the chance to meet up, just that i am left with no one to really understand my joke and joke with. all the best to you and hope everything goes smoothly for you. i know it would be hard, but for the future, ENDURE!!!

Since yesterday, i have this really weird feeling. i felt that something which has been with me for so long is finally leaving me slowly, draining away from me. something that has been with me for 5-6 years is finally leaving. happy and sad at the same time. happy that i do not have to carry it with me anymore, tiring me out occasionally, sad that i had nothing to rely on anymore, nothing to back me up when i needed a break from everything, as it had never failed to make me smile. but soon, it would be gone, i think. i used to hope that it would leave me, and now, all of the sudden, it is starting to drip off me, like water sipping out a crack. slowly nothing would be left. i have no intension in mending that crack either. so now GO. SHOO!!!!!! hahahaha but it's just like a mother needing to leave her child in the kindergarden, the child so unwilling, wailing out for the mother, and the mother unwilling, unready to leave the child there, scared and afraid, but knowing that it would be the best way out for the child and herself.

I HAVE SO MANY TO DO, BUT SO UNWILLING TO DO THEM. HOWWWWWWWWW!!!!!!!!!

Love
Jia Pei!!