2nd april 07
20:44

was about to set a google acc to used this but, 'deng' able to using it again without that hassle.
not sure what set me wanting to go through that 'hassle' to set up the acc and blog again. feelings just came, and here i am wanting to write something again.

alittle update.
having my study break now. lots to catch up and be done by 2 weeks. i have to take bio now which is new to me so there is lots to learn and memorise. it's the 6 week of sch last week, and when sch reopen another six weeks, then exams, then i will be home. so don't MISS me too much when i am not around.

some random stuff.
reading through some random blogs, thinking about some random stuff, and here i am writing some random stuff too.

oh before that, past 3 days i fin 2 drama series. one is the very popular taiwan series hanakimi(hua yang shao nian shao nu), not really nice, or maybe not as aspected. er zhuo ju zhi wen would be nicer(looking forward to the 2nd part). the other one is a korean drama called super rookie. nice show. quite educating. it shows how people from good college get the job and all that sutff, like how the real working world is, how net working is important and sometimes some people just have better life than you. nice story.

another thing, i just had steamboat today, only 3 of us, company was ok, but not the food, really can't get standard food here. still prefer our steamboat. WHEN ARE WE HAVING ONE.

back to my random stuff.
(can't remember what i wanted to write on, suppose to be 2 but can only remember one, serious short term memory, it was just 5 min ago, let's see if i can remember as i go along.)
oh i remeber it now.
ok here i start.
why do we want friends for? so that we don't look lonely? why is it that you want to continue to befriend this person when you are practically complaining and bad mouthing about her. i seriously doubt your friendship.
let me tell you all a rough story about this friend of mine.
these 2 friends know each other when they first came over to study last yr. both girls. then they moved in and stay with each other. of course conflicts occur. then they will complain about each other to other friends. but they continue to be so good friends, slp together and do things together. then this yr they are in the same sch but have moved out seperately. S was the one that complained more causing many of our sch mates to have really really bad impression about K. it goes to the extend where ppl hated her and some even called her bitch and so on. and S continue to complain about her, BUT they are still so close, they can sit on each other lab and feed MnMs. how rediculous could that be. yes, it may be that K make used of S in certain things, but from my POV i think shar volunteered to do most of the things.
e.g. she would complain that she always don't return her the money, but the other day when we were out for lunch, S paid 1st and K said she would pay later, and S said it's ok, don't have to return the $$. if you really want ppl to pay you shouldn't have said that in the 1st place.
S is a nice friend, but she also make those around her very stress about it. i think she really rely upon friends too much. she can't do things on her own, almost everywhere she go there must be someone to accompany her.
everyone is an indivisual, people have their own private life, not becase you like this person you can hog on to her, and aspect her to go whereever you want to go.
(the whole thing doen't seems to flow, just bare with it.)

why do we keep friends when you know that friendship won't last. because you never know that that friendship will end until it ended.

why do friends get all paranoid and concern only when your friends are facing a relationship problem. is there really no other things that are worth concerning, or when your friends are facing other difficulties. i am guilty for this, and will take note about it. why is it that other things like sch work or even family are not that important? why is it only when you break up with your bf/gf then would you see your friend swaming over to console you? why is it that we don't see it when someone in the family pass away or when you did really badly or when you are crying over your results. why is it losing a partner that wasn't faithful to you more important that losing a family member or other difficulties.
like the saying says, 'we can only feel it when we have been through it'. this is the only reason i can come up with, relationship breakup would be something most people would have been through.

your families are the people whom will always be there for you, no matter what you have done or happen.

(you might not understand what i have written because many are not written in full and some sentences might not be related, but let's just leave it as it is.)

was there even used to.
a really confuse
Jia Pei
at this very instant