6th nov 06
19.20
today mark the start of the exam and also the end of my 1st paper. next paper would be thurs and follow by fri. phy after chem.

i was just told about something quite shocking or rather quite unbelievable. when i first came here which is last yr july, i wasn't quite settling into the school and environment. things were not made easier with my lack of initiative. luckily i get help from one of the teacher which sadly has left the sch for her passion, and also the help from some friends. i didn't trust anyone here, unlike in sg, not much communication were done to anyone. i was like a total different me back then, of course i hated it. the trusting i am saying here is more of emotional and back stabbing and not those of monetory concern. i cannot rmb why i felt that way, there wasn't any incident that happened to me. then things got better, i guess i was homesick back then with the stress of studying and getting better grades and getting into vet sci. more friends were made, outings were more often.
i got to know this grp of singapore friends, most of them came or rather all of them came this year, i was the only one that came last year. in this school, usually students of the same country will stay together esp for singaporeans. i don't know why, singaporeans have a higher tendancy of 'sticking' together. then started going home after school with the cousin which is in the same school and another friend, play badminton, and went for some grocery shopping on the way home. things was ok, not that we talk a lot about personal stuff, or we are some gd gal friends that would stay over nite at each other hse, but we communicate well, joke around and things were pretty fun. this friend of ours wasn't really social, i guess she is still not used to the place, she never goes out with us, other then schooling, we don't see her, except for the occasional badminton sessions after school. then until today, my cousin told me that this friendhas got tuition. okay, it might not be a big deal to have tuition, but she is having tuition and none of us know it. what would anyone think abt it? its not only for the period of the exams, but it started months ago. we felt quite cheated, i think its normal for anyone to feel that way. perhaps she might think that its no big deal having tuition. i don't really blame her and i don't have the right to, but i just feel alittle disappointed. but its also when something like this happen, you know how much this friend mean to you. althought i felt disappointed but i wasn't really angry, i wasn't much affected by it. if its one of you, i would have felt worst.
just when i thought i could trust someone, this happen.
learn the harsh reality of the real world.
never trust someone whom you think is a gd friend.

JiApEi