things have and hopefully remain restored
23 july 06
18:33
back for a few hours. had my dinner.

throughout the week there are times where i feel scared, not sure why, i tried to suppress it. luckily it's not very frequent.
i had fun fun fun fun fun fun fun fun fun fun fun fun fun throughout the week. thanks to everywho make it happen. esp calin who accompanied for so many breakfast and the dim sums. actually i accompanied you too rite? hahaaa. and also for the interview.

this time round i have strong feelings of not coming back, partly due to the exam, and also partly because i have lots of fun in sg.

saturday i went to my grandma house for bbq. its sort of a bbq for me and my cousin because we are back. my fifth aunt always organise something for us. hee. i played soccer with my cousinl, ok its not soccer, but we just kick and pass the ball to each other. it started only with me and my favourite cousin Alika, we chat, ask him about school and all that, then his brother keala joined. feel so good. we have been very close although our age is like 4 and 5 yrs different. i used to always bring them out and all. most of you should know them. hahahaa. they have grown so much, they grown tall and all. Alika even have a change in his voice. we used to hug each other when we see each other, then Alika started to grow and rejected the hug. hahaa. keola is more socialble so he didn't mind. i think he will be a play boy in future. hahaaa.
there this incodent that happen in my grandma hse that i find it very hilarious.
i was talking to Alika and i commented that his voice have change, then kainoa was there,
and he said "ya lor, break already what, he going to be father."
that was damn funny.

both boys grew so much, we used to go to our grandparents place after school, we watched tv together, cook meggi mee and eat, play, go to the park, go mama shop... so many games that i played with them, from playing 'jia jia jiu' to sliding in the front pouch after the rain. i am glad not much have change, we grow up, but we are still close. hee. i was so happy after the 'soccer' session. hahaa. it was damn nice. i feel so good, alittle emotional though.

this morning i cried, not very terribly, just feel tears dropping out, i didn't the other time. i guess its because there are more people today. my aunts and cousins are there. when i cried, my father was there saying like it will be over soon, we have to suffer first then we can get the fruit. i always get very emotional when he say such things. (i have tears in my eyes now) i love him.

thanks for everyone for making my short holiday so wonderful. those that came for the many food sessions, everyone cracking up jokes, laughing together, teasing each other, enjoying each others company, loving each other, shouting, quarreling, playing, even the silent moments were treasued. i really love you guys my friends. but i guess it would be better if everyone had more time and that money could drop from heaven. hahahaa. wishful thinking heh? hahaha. but i am content with the situation now.
want to thank calin's mum for the nian gao and cindy for the gong bao ji ding.heee. stop being jealous calin.

actually wanted to write this post when i am more emotional so that the things i want to present can be presented better. hee.
btw, the posts i post here is for everyone to read, so if my writing needs improvment please comment, which i will aprreciate very much. trying to brush up my language. i will post the rest of my nonsense in another blog.

loved
JiaP Ei