friends. IT'S THE 5TH
5th july 06
18:42
going back tomorrow. or should i say the day after tomorrow. this time, there is a little excitement in me, which was not felt the pass few times. don't ask me why. went to the supermarket just now, bought some Australia brand biscuits. hopefully they can last until everyone have a chance to try. hahaa.
but i got to bring back like 3 boxes of pessimon fruit. omg. i really wonder how am i going to carry them. i am sure she(auntie) will insist that i bring them all back, and she is going to buy a packet of nougart asking me to bring back when my cousin have already brought back 2 weeks ago. omg omg omg. moreover my parents are not coming to pick me. die die die. CALIN AND JIEMIN YOU GUYS HAVE TO HELP ME LE. unless we can finish like......... about 60 pessimons then we don't have to carry them. how. omg.



i have learn how not to be hurt by friends, it's by not treating them seriously, don't put too much effort in the friendship and you will not get hurt in return. i have been here for almost a year, no much friends problem, no quarreling, no unhappiness nothing, only sometimes feel abit 'bu shuang'. still making quite alot of friends, but there isn't those rival thingy going on like how it used to be in sec sch. i don't know when it started, i learned to be more open minded. there are lots of quarreling and talking bad about others in secondary days, there are 'confrontations' too. here, everyone have the smiling face, we joke like we are good friends, although there are still some taking of others behind the back. of course i did enjoy my secondary school days. if i am able to choose now or go back to the days, i might choose to go back. the school days during secondary school are so fun. although there are some conflicts during secondary school days, it sometimes makes me smile, because it's because we care and treasure these friendships that causes these conflicts.

there is this grp of people who have come the beginning of the year and they are complaining about each other and having cold war. perhaps they are still young, not much younger though, only one year younger then me. but well, i guess friendships are also fated. this stuff use to bother me alot. not now. was talking to jun chin yesterday, he said something like we used to be so immature when it comes to such things (refering to our friendship, i guess most of you should know what i am refering to). but i guess we are naive then, we are young, taking friendship like a treasure. i still do that, this group of us is still being treasured by me. but we tend to grow and understand things, and know what life is all about. we never hold on to things that we know will not work out. or perhaps we are too lazy to hold on. i guess this is good, those that treasure each other will still stay as friends, those that don't give the hack just leave, i don't find it a pity anymore. i am actually very glad that these few people have left, there are less headaches. when we were such a big groups, i always have worry offending someone, like not calling every single one out, even though i know i would be rejected. its so much easy to maintain a small group, and that those that are still in it have the same interest, and we understand each other well enough.

don't misunderstand me that i am saying that i don't treasure the group of us. i still love every single one of you peeps. hahaa. just that when comes to making friends now, i don't tend to give more. i used to give everything i could, not anymore. i let nature takes it course. if it's mend to be, it's mend to be. i have friends that i know them since last year and i enjoy equally with friends that i actually made this year. perhaps some of you might say time have got nothing to do with it. but sometimes some people just click better some people just don't. perhaps its the place we are born in, the environment we are born in, we tend to stick to people that have the same background with us. we feel more comfortable that way.

why do people always say that your secondary school friends or poly and jc mates are the one that you will stick with for the rest of your life? i guess it have got to do with our age, you tend to be more mature and do things with consideration. you will not anymore go all the way to help your friends, unless they are very close ones.

thinking back of the days we used to spend together always made me smile. i have been thinking about them alot for the pass few nights. not sure how long have this been going on though. the times when we girls spend together, the grp of us, the chalets or even the times with the guys only. every single one was so special and memories are so fond. even during events when i am not there like the black out steamboat you people have at ct's hse and the celebration during cyen's birthday, they are like in my memories too. i guess i hear too much from everyone of you, or looking at the pictures you all take, it's as if i was there. hahahaa. weird isn't it.

i guess jiemin and i will be at SP on friday, so call jm phone if you people wanna meet up, i think jc will be meeting us as well. at night we might be going for frog leg porridge and chou tou fu. anyone care to join? give jm a call.

Loved
Jiap eI