Some memories and words
27th nov 05
9:12
Was reading for my exam but have a sudden urge to see and read the things that are full of memories that I have brought with me here..
The 1st.. the post card that jun send to me.. having ur support with me all the times makes my life here better.. makes things easier for me.. thank you and best of cousins.. love ya..
Then my paternal family photo.. Seems like my dad have grown quite diff.. then looking at my granddad.. I realise how ‘filial’ I am.. I didn’t notice what type of clothes he wear, what he wears on his hand.. nv look at his face closely before.. I guess many of us are distance to him ba.. thinking in his shoes I wonder if he feels the agony of not being close with his children and grandchildren.. I really don’t know.. there was once he need to go to the hospital.. and he ask his 4th son to send him there.. and guess what he said. The son say that his time is very priceless.. one hr $50 when he teachers tuition.. what the heck.. that’s ur father for gods sake.. and now after he have pass away he is there wanted his ‘rightful’ share of his property.. wtf.. I have nv seen someone so shameless and stingy.. he is leaving in a landed property and owns a 1million plus condo and have migrated to new Zealand.. but guess what his son usually wear.. the shirt are like torn.. he himself also not wearing something presentable.. but well we still talk to each other lah.. but I guess many ppl are hating him now.. back to my granddad.. I sometimes regretted now going up to him and talk to him. But if time really goes back.. will we be able to do that.. can we really talk? Heard cannot rmb who that my bro was the only grandchild he went to visit at the hospital when he was born.. because my bro is the 1st grandchild.. and I guess he speaks to my mum more then my dad.. weird isn’t it.. hahaha. That’s what I feel lah, hearing what my mum told me abt him.. something my maternal grandma says abt him is a sentence he once said to her.. ‘when we are young we don’t have the $ to eat, but when we are old and have the $ we don’t have the health to eat’ (in hokkien).. thinking back, I cannot rmb any conversation or anything that me and my grandpa have said.. how weird isn’t it..anyway.. I still love you grandpa..
Then I look at my maternal photo.. looking through counting the aunties that are there.. then my grandpa.. hmm.. so tears starts to accumulate and flow.. looking at his usual smile and how I always see him with that face when he is jking with us.. looking at him carrying keola.. the once so young boy.. making me once again miss him so much.. he always treated the cousins very well.. he always play with us.. he treats everyone equally.. I will always remember and love u.. the memories that we had are countless.. love frm all the cousins.. muacks..
Then I look at my pri class photo.. surprisingly I stil can rmb every single one of them.. yea. Hehehe.. I bet many of u have already forgotten them..
Then the card hui gave.. thank you hui.. althought ur msges are always very brief but thank you so much.. love you too..
Then of course to the orange book.. looking at the 1st pg is the ‘chuan jia fu’ that hui drew.. the many stars.. I still rmb here telling me that that is the chuan jia fu..
Then the 2nd pg is min’s.. min, I want to tell u we not only have the same horo, blood type, age and gender.. we are born in the same hospital.. and some other things which I have thought abt but forgot le.. I really feel quite weird.. we have so many things similar.. blood type and horo are what ppl use to see ur personality.. but like what u say we have diff thinking.. however our personality are quite similar ba.. with many similar interest as well.. if I didn’t come over hear we might even be studying the same course.. ur wishing list of keeping in contact everynite have not been fulfilled.. saying my gui dian zi always repeating.. but then no choice there are so many things that limit my thinking mah.. and u better rmb our goal.. hope we can really reach there.. I really hope so.. love ya loads..
Then to gay’s.. thanks for ur RnB b’day song.. hahaa.. and its also friends like u that makes the world go round in an interesting way.. hehe..
Then calin.. read the 1st few sentence.. and I decide to blog.. to post something for everyone.. If I nv rmb wrongly lin’s msges was the 1st that makes me cry.. this proves that her eng not bad..hahaha. then reading it again now.. the feelings are some what the same. The happiiee, craziiee times, and of coz strained periods are what you wrote.. yea.. every sentence of yours are full of.. erm.. I don’t know.. memories will not be erased.. a friend is one who knows and loves you just the same!.. I have learn quite a lot abt this sentence.. hehe.. and lin.. faster overcome the fear of doggies.. hehe.. I hope to continue to share you probss.. thank you encouraging me and understanding me.. the many things you have did really makes my surrounding seems brighter.. the time we used to spend together will not be forgotten.. the time we chat on the phone. The strained times.. then to now.. the unforgettable memories.. and lets continue to complain together.. lova you hundreds..
Hui.. its u again.. with the pic that I once said was nice. But then after enlarging it ur eyes seems puffy.. hahaa.. anyway ur pg is one that is created the best I guess. Ur cuteness ans lameness can also be seen in ur writings.. miss the time when everyone was quite and u are the one trying to liven up the atmosphere.. hhee.. thanks for what you have done.. you decorated this book.. thanks.. thanks for encouraging me.. hehe.. always asking me if I did study.. hahaha.. hope you faster find ur white horse price.. yeeps.. love ya very much..
Lala.. I guess something u write really very true.. I miss the food in sg.. hahaa. Ok.. I guess those who have read ur msg have the same sentiments as me ba.. always thought that u didn’t bother abt the grp.. but then frm ur msg.. its really diff.. It makes me smile frm the bottom of the heart.. every of ur sentence is very impt to me.. really glad that I have made ur life change.. and of course I miss the time when we laugh like siao char bo.. I still rmb us walking to ur hse.. laughing like mad.. and u always laughing at me when I say sorry to ur bro’s com.. ur forthrightness.. may it be gd or bad.. but it makes u a person who is pure.. some weird analogy.. but well.. you always say what u have in mind.. be it irritating others..but at least ppl understand ur thoughts.. I have always regret not having to share enough time with u.. because u are living at a diff place.. our meet ups often do not have u.. I am so very glad that you was there during my b’day.. so very glad that u have found ur prince too and you guys are going on very well.. love ya to bits my cute little lala cousin cam friend..
Ru.. I guess u are the one who really see my changes my growth and like wise I have seen urs.. frm the quiet ru to now.. althought we seldom meet up but u will always be remembered.. ur concerns are also greatly appreciated.. wow.. 7 yrs.. 7 yrs just pass like tt.. another 3 yrs.. we will be friends for like 10 yrs.. unbelievable man.. really.. guess ur life now is very gd ba.. always the cute ru in our eyes.. hehee.. thanks for helping me in my studies last time yea.. I think u are the one who wil not get pek chek when teaching me.. hahaa.. love ya to hundreds.. stay happy always..
Yen.. spending the times writing my names so many times.. have always wanted to celebrate ur b’day somewhat more diff.. will do it one day de.. participating in the things I have organize thanks.. always trying hard.. guess u are coping well with ur sch and bf lee.. hehe.. I guess our friendship have also improve after I came over, we chat abt things le.. giving ur opinion.. hope that you will continue to join our outing okay? Hehe.. hope ur life will go smoothly.. love ya loads..
Meng.. stop calling me the name I don’t like ok.. I guess km is really someone who can cheer ppl up de.. always bringing in the mood.. u have really play an impt role there.. we have not had our overseas conference call.. I guess u are also someone whom I used to take for granted ba.. like u have said.. asking u to do things.. always so thick skin have also become ur ‘zao pai’.. I really thing u are brave to make the choice u are doing now.. I am very diff frm u.. both of us are making a diff route frm the rest.. and ur determination is something that I respect very much.. I understand the feeling of making this choices.. but u make it so swiftly.. u noe very much what u want and u go for it.. nv regretting ur choice.. u may seems playful to us.. when u have ur serious side.. althought we used to say u do things overboard.. but u have change le ba.. but ur thick skin and ur cheerfulness are still with u.. ur lamesness and stuff are missed.. ur times at the army might not be as gd as the rest because u guys are the younger batch.. but I know u have the determination and the perseverance to make it.. till now u have.. guess u are really really coping well le.. don’t change km..
Peng.. although ur msg is short.. but meaning full.. u nv fail to participate to ur fullest when u are ard.. really miss the time we spend together.. ur enthu when u are ard is seem by many I known by many.. u nv get angry.. u laugh with us.. we cry with u.. u are another person whom have make a diff choice.. I may not understand ur choice in the beginning. But will support it.. now.. I guess u have think thoughtfully abt ur choice.. and u are living well with it.. happy that u have found someone that is worth ur love.. really really hope to see u when I am back.. love ya to bits..
Lili.. I know its hard for u to write something so long..hahaa. so thanks yea.. ur msg is also something very meaningful.. yeeps.. I guess u are really very mature in ur thinking compared to many of us.. although u may seems serious but u still joke with us.. u don’t mind us making fun of ur name.. hehe.. and when u are pissed.. ppl will stop irritating u.. ahaha.. u may seems quite. But act is something li chang dao.. u act got a lot to say de.. always rmb listening u talk until I yawn.. hahaa.. someone who wil compromise others unlike me. Hahaa.. ur concern is something that I treasure very much.. ur life is always very smooth sailing.. so I know it is the same now yea.. hope to see u soon too.. rmb to continue to join our events yea.. love ya to pieces..
Chinchin.. the long and untidy msges.. I still have abit of difficulty reading it.haha.. I know what time can’t change. And it have been proven.. yea.. I guess I really see ur changes ur growth.. and I know u are living well with it.. ur msges are as touching.. thanks for writing such wonderful msges.. I guess our friendship have really grown.. we really and I mean really really have our up and downs.. we changes each other for the better.. and we learn frm each other.. thinking what I can write.. but there is too many.. so many things that happen between us.. its so weird I would say.. the changes that I have made because of the things I have learn frm u.. the changes seen in u.. makes life like a miracle.. guess we really get to understand each other le.. thanks for being there.. having u as a friend have change my life.. ur enthu in the grp have made my heart nv dies after many negative feed backs and many set backs that I get.. thanks for everything that u have done.. love ya bitsy..
Tuck.. sounds so weird.. haha.. nvm.. the things he have done on the book have really surprise me and I guess the others as well.. the poem, the letter the effort put in.. there are still some words that I do not know how to read though.. haha. Ur msh made me laugh to cry.. was laughing at the blue part.. tears at the gold part.. the things written have really made lifee diff for me.. the things are unexpected.. I guess u have really help me lots and lots during my hard time here.. there are many times that u help me sort out my thinkings.. although there are times when u like to improvise ur thinking onto others and makes me so pek chek.. but really u have help me a lot.. regardless I am here or in sg.. act everytime see u so la tak.. so shui bian.. act u also very ai mei de.. take pic still need to comb hair.. hahaa.. although u have help me a lot, I guess I also have a fair share in listening to u complain hoh.. I know u sure say its not complain..haa.. its kind of weird thinking back when we were sec 1 and 2 until now rite.. kinda feel that u have change alittle now.. but hopefully when I get back u did not. Haa.. the determination seen in u and the so many philosophy that u said have made me think abt things and change things.. guess everything are still as smooth sailing for u as before.. so hope u continue to enjoy life and find a gf.. haha..
The so many pics taken together.. the memories kept.. the memories not being able to be erased.. the times we spend together.. the things we share.. the conversations we had.. the places we went.. the movies we watch.. the songs we sang.. the work we done.. the ups and downs.. the events we had.. the encouragement we gave.. the ideas we though.. the sweat we sweat.. the chemistry we share.. the 2e1darlins with the we.. friends.. I love u guys.. friend forever..

Once chinchin encourage me after organizing until I pek chek.. I would like to share it.. ‘everyone plays a role in a grp’.. there are ppl who organize stuff.. ppl who liven up the spirits.. ppl who goes there and join the fun.. ppl who help.. without anyone of them.. the grp is incomplete..

Lurve
Pei