bloody
4th nov 05
7:41
I WROTE SO MUCH AND IT SAID IT WAS PUBLISHED AND IT WASN'T .. DAMN..
an invisible hand woke me up again.. the hand that is so strong.. the sun.. looking at the clock, its only 5 plus.. lying in bed half awake, and couldn't take it anymore.. everything is playing in my mind.. things that i try to avoid but constantly coming into my mind..
so many things is in my mind.. i can't help it.. it may be easy for some to make decision, BUT I HATE MAKING DECISIONS.. i tried talking to ppl thinking that it will make me feel better like it always do.. but this time, it doesn't work.. things come into my mind once i am awake.. no matter what i do its in my mind.. the 1st thing i think of half awake. nothing seems to be helping to get rid of the thing.. i tried writing.. it doesn't help either.. wishfully thinking that blogging will help again.. haiz..
i do not wish to use the word stress.. i think its too strong a word to use. but.. nvm.. this is my 2nd time repeating all this again.. because of the stupid blogspot..
many things i may miss but i nv miss this.. thanks
thanks jc for being there, for listening to me, for helping me, for giving me opinion, for taking the initiative, for lending me a helping hand and leaving it there, thanks for your support which means alot to me.. thanks
thanks lin for your concern, for listesning to me, for your assurance, for being there, for understanding, thanks for the support that i know you will give which means alot to me.. thanks
thanks min for listening to me, for making me more awake, for helping me, for making things clearer.. thanks
love u guys to bits.. muack..
jc's quoto ' tomorrow will be a better day' hopefully it will and like what lin says nv look back, chuan dao qiao tou zhi ran zhi..

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Pei