bloody
4th nov 05
07:11
the sun just wake up so early every morning. haiz.. and it came into my rm and with its invisible hand, woke me up. turn around looking at the alarmm clock, and guess what time is it.. its 5 plus in the morning.. eep.. lie on the bed half awake.. hmm.. you can still see the moon at this time in Sinagapore.. think about it, after i am here i seldom see the moon.. in Singapura i think i see more of the moon then the sun manzz..
the 1st thing that came into my mind was todays test.. and decisions.. argh.. simply hate it.. but lucky wasn't disturb during my sleep.. yeeps..
there is simply so much to think about.. so much to be done.. but i can't get my freaking mind to make a decision and do some usefull stuff.. it may be easy for some to make such decision.. but I HATE MAKING DECISIONS.. haiz.. guess i can only blame myself, for not being independant enough.. i have to learn, its a rough path. have no confidence in it so all i can say is chuan dao qiao tou zhi ran zi. hahaha.. come to think abt it.. i have not really make some major decision.. like coming over hear is a major event for me, i said that i wanted to come here.. but i nv really decide about comin here.. i just walk along the next path available..
things are in my mind all the time.. no mater what i do.. try talking upteems time to ppl.. but it doesn't help like it used to be.. all i can blame is myself. thinking wishfully that after blogging i might feel better..
i don't even know what i want how to i expect ppl to give me what i want.. hmm..

wanna thanks a few ppl.. thanks jc for helping me.. for being there.. for listening to me.. for taking the initiative.. for giving me advise..ur support mean alot to me.. thanks..
thanks lin for being concern.. for listening to me.. for encouraging me.. for giving me assurance.. for the support that i am sure u will give which mean alot to me.. thanks..
thanks min for listening to me, for making me more awake, for giving me new opinions.. thanks..
love u guys so very de much.. muackss..
jun chin's quote 'tomorrow will be a better day'.. hope every new day would be a better day.. and like what lin quote says nv look back.. chuan dao qiao tou zhi ran zhi

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Pei